May 14, 2016: The Bucket List
In Part VII of Senioritis, I shared a bucket list for the 99 days leading up to graduation. It had such items as hiking, leaving love letters at Target, eating at Holy Taco. Throughout the spring, my family, friends, and I got to go on adventures. We had bomb queso, took a cool time lapse while freezing our butts off, found tiny doors on a giant trail filled with artwork. I could write about our successful bucket list fun. I could make a cute photo slideshow of all the pictures we took. But really, it’s time to come clean, since I graduated this morning: I did not complete this bucket list.
We only conquered two-thirds of the items I wrote down back in February. Life got in the way, I guess. I was busy with softball and AP classes and deciding on a college. 99 days and we only did six things? It seems like a letdown… but honestly, I am nothing but grateful.
Because of the graduation bucket list, my family, friends, and I got to do things we wouldn’t have done otherwise. We spent good, quality time together. We laughed a lot. We went out and lived what we could have just experienced through a screen or Snapchat story. I’m proud that those bucket list days and nights were just a small part of the final countdown of my senior year. I learned to just go out and do. Like my favorite Jonsi song: go do.
But even more than that, I’m proud of how okay I am with not checking everything off on this list. I am a list person. I like charts, organization, and crossing things off. I like checks in boxes and neat bows on wrapping. I like to have every last duck in a perfect row. And that’s definitely not what happened with this bucket list. We forgot to go to Waffle House after we visited Jackson Street Bridge. We never made it up a mountain. If we were being graded for completion, we would make a 67%, which is a failing grade. But I pre-decided to not let my graduation bucket list make me freak out like I often do before big events, fretting about everything I wanted to get done, worrying that I can’t cross all my color-coded tasks out with my Sharpie pen, more concerned with accomplishing everything than doing it well. Instead, this time, just this once, I wanted to focus on the fun.
And it was fun. Even if it wasn’t complete, it was fun. I couldn’t be more thankful for that lesson: It’s okay for life to be messy and imperfect. It’s still a whole lot of beautiful. My graduation bucket list taught me that the adventure in life is worth so much more than what you’ve got on paper. You can have imperfect fun. And I think it’s even more fun than “perfect” fun.
I’m going to come back at the end of the summer with a bucket-list-related challenge for y’all. Not gonna lie, I’m pretty stoked about it. Please, stay tuned, but for now: go do. Go out and live your life and do whatever you need to do to make this summer the best summer ever. Paint your nails and get your confidence on. Call someone out of the blue. Do that thing that’s been right around the corner for months, but that you’ve never made time to experience. Try lots of queso. Please, go do. I’ll see you soon.